I drew out how a card in app could look like. Sorry for the messy writing and drawing. I can hardly hold a pencil straight. Can you guess what my app is about.
Yesterday was the worst of the worst days. I was fuming over my company’s slow paced resignation process. My emotions were swinging between anxiety and exhilaration about my upcoming life as full-time-stay-at-home-homemaker-mom. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that… I scratched somebody’s car while rearing out of the parking lot. I scratched someone’s car pretty bad. :'(. Ruining another employee’s fairly maintained unscratched car in the parking lot on the last week of work. A parting present for the employee and rest o’them at office to remember me by. This is the stuff nightmares are made of. Anyways the car belongs to a manager. She said she will talk to her husband about this since she has no idea about cars. Of course, I don’t know much about cars either. So my husband and her husband can negotiate any damages that need to be paid. Of course, I’m paying.
The lesson I learned from all this is. Do not think about your life when you are driving. Just drive.
I looked back on my abandoned mobile app project. I reeled at the sight of the well written code. Can I do this again? I wondered. I can do this again. I have two options. 1)Rework the Expense Manager app I was working on previously or 2)Start on a new idea I have. Looking through the code, I feel like I should not waste all the effort I put on the Expense Manager. So I have come to the decision. I will complete all the design changes in the app and republish it.
Ok so I am resigning from my job. Actually I have resigned verbally but it will be official when my resignation notice is signed. Hopefully that will be done by Monday. I’ve been working for this company as a data analyst since February 2015. My decision to resign is correct, I am quite sure of it. I will be regretting this decision later, in a few weeks. I am quite sure of this at well.
Why did I decide to resign in the first place? I leave my kids at my moms place and I was not entirely satisfied with this arrangement. In Pakistan, well I don’t know about Pakistan. In Karachi, daycares is a rare luxury only the richest can afford. Even if I could afford it, there is not a single daycare in my area. So my one and only option was to leave the kids at my moms.
Why will I regret resigning? Very simple I have too much energy to be contained with the housekeeping routine and rearing children (though the later is quiet exhausting). I want to learn, explore and apply my skills.
So I am back to square one on this blog. I think my initial posts were about working from home . I guess that’s all I will be talking about from now on.
Time is quiet unpredictable.
Sometimes it languishes away in hours.
Othertimes it leaps and bounds through them.
When important tasks are at hand.
It’s slips away like a slitherly eel.
Then on days you wait, it waits with you.
Like a loyal dog it’s at your heel.
Like disiplined soldiers that march in sync.
They cannot be the ones to blame.
They do not speed they do not heed .
Yet some mystery is at play.
Maybe time is not the clock.
Maybe time is what you felt.
How much was done, how long it took.
And only you know what you felt.
Only you know the time that passed.
My son is three. He says he loves me every day. He says this by holding my cheeks in his little palms. He continues to say this for atleast 10 minutes it can get extended to as long as ever if I am in a middle of a conversation with some one. He wants me to maintain eye contact with him while he professes his love or he just says “mamma mamma mamma?”. He makes the most eloquent confessions.
“Mamma I like you very much. I like your cheeks”
“Mamma please don’t do any work. Grand ma can do the work.”
“Mamma you are so nice you make my food. You tell me stories.”
“I will never leave you. I will sit on your lap for ever”
“I like you more than my blue car”
And I have to quit whatever I am doing and give him his cuddles and praise him in return otherwise his love has no bounds.
The thing is I am a working mom. So sometimes I really don’t have the time at the point in time he wants the attention. Initially I would even snap at him to leave me alone. Later I realized it’s very important to him to express his love for me and require me to assure him I the same. I also realized heis learning how to converse. Since he is most comfortable at talking about how much he loves me he does it over and over again.
Writing down this post I have come up with another idea. Next time he bestows his attention on me, I will try to lead the conversation into new directions to encourage him to express himself on other things.
Been drifting around like driftwood on the ocean of this life
Once I struggled for direction but got nowhere that seemed right
I searched for the ship wreck, the place that I called home
But then I found it to be a shipwreck and no more
So now I drift like driftwood, the waves carry me where they want
They know all about the ocean, I follow in their accord
Hide tides, they will surely break me, but they don’t
and I continue alone, only I know what I went through
And on the days, when the currents caress and kiss
I wonder, if I am ever missed
I think if I float a few more days, I’ll come by a boat or raft
That they may be in need of wood, and then I’ll be on my way
Or maybe I’ll see a sandy shore and I’ll lodge myself there
Watch the algae grow upon me, and that’s where I will stay
If there is purpose to my life, it is to explore
If there is a reason I survive, it is because I hope
The horizon stretches out in welcome, possibilities abound
So there I go a’drifting on the ocean of my life
Finally I’ve started feeling that I can get back to serious app development work. Nabiha is all settled in the prep school routine and prefers to do most things on her own. Abdullah, turned 11 months on the 5th of march. Other than his teething crankiness, he is a very peaceful, self regulating, piece of work. So far I’m getting ample time to follow a course on Coursera a great website that offers courses that can be taken from home. I listen to weekly lectures, give quizzes and submit assignments, sometimes I browse through the forum too just to see how the rest of the “class” is doing. Getting back to studying learning something is really a lot of fun (Only a full time housewife could say it with the enthusiasm I’m feeling over this).
The course is called Programming Mobile Applications for Android Handheld Systems offered by University of Maryland conducted by Dr. Adam Porter. The course started from 21st January with the last lecture on 18th March. This course is the first of the three courses that will lead to a Specialization. Since I signed up through the Signature Track. If I manage to complete three courses and the Capstone Project at the end of the courses, I will receive a Verified specialization certificate. All this will cost me $196 (of which $49 I’v already paid) and around 8 months (of which 7 weeks have already passed).
I’m glad I took this course. It has cleared out so many of my concepts and also increased my confidence. I have started work on the new version of Expense Manger which I will probably release as a new app (since I unpublished the last Expense Manager quite a while ago). This time I’ve started work with the interface design.
Will post a video of my piechart screen soon to show off the sleek animation I coded into it.
And now I will get back to my assignment about sensors, location and maps
Finally have another working app on Android. This time its a Picture book for kids with pages that can curl and flip! Would really appreciate feedback.
App animations are a bit slow at the moment which I am working on at the moment. Also working on some other exciting features for this app.
A short review on Drippler.com by Abhimanyu Ghoshal is very encouraging.“Here’s one for those who swear by a budget: VanillaUtils’ Expense Manager lets you track your spending against a monthly limit, a stipulated amount while you’re on vacation or a business trip. You can even use this for budgeted projects such as home remodeling. A simple pie chart and listing of your expense categories help you get a clear perspective on your spending. Not bad for a free app that looks great to boot.”Thank you!